Wrong you are wrong he did not hate Hannah nor have no use for her. Youre often fearful and unhappy and insecure Its not fun you often want to kill yourselfs We do argue, but since BPD are afraid of abandonment we cling again.so we always come back together and cuddle. She has diagnosed BPD too so we often bond over it. When I am happy I am very happy but ONE thing can make me super angry again and thus ruin my entire day.īut my girlfriend loves me (ahem probably the 1 millionth girlfriend all my other exes dumped me fast) I feel this is the one. When I go violent I call it "the devil inside me" because it feels like I am compelled to be angry and my heart rate goes up and so my face turns red and my voice raises. We talk to ourselves as if we are not in our bodies.like we are a separate entity who has no control over our bodily functions. Oh and one more thing.you know how you KNOW you are you. Then I feel regret then intense love and that love is "I want them back I hurt them I am stupid". After that I go numb, as in, I don't care about others. After that I feel sad and alone.I often cry and think of suicide. Often I will get hit with a wave of anger should I get slightly fearful and then the anger turns into pure hatred so I will get physically violent. You are either entirely good or entirely bad. See we do not function like you do we think black and white. We are half psychopathic (Not caring for anyone, acting on impulse, need for stimulation) and half Neurotic (extremely emotionally unstable) hence the term Borderline We are on the Border of both opposites and we often switch in between. We may even disassociate and forget what we have done, and often, people label us as crazy. We are mean and cruel when we get angry from the fear of abandonment and so, we lash out in illogical anger. That is why we often call ourselves "Evil, disgusting, nasty". Its misunderstood ugh.and why is he mean? He isn't its how we act and we literally have no control over ourselves. His past was like mine but in terms of physical abuse, its best not to talk aboutīut yes.maybe you guys should idk read up on it But he has Borderline Personality Disorder
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